was kinda moody today... somethings i cant get off my mind... and my heart. dunno lah joy was asking y i so glum in church so i tried to act more happy... tts the prob when ur too happy all the time... when ur not its really obvious. sometimes i dunno.. its like i have noone to turn to to tok to... im SO happy tt im going to see jac tml... its like i went to church wanted to tok... but like abit hard in front of the whole cell and den... i dunno lah i guess its easier for me to tok to pple one on one... den all the pple im closer to left early den wanted to call bin but she was bz and of cos marcus doesnt reply msgs... so yah... hiahz... im just really really glad im going out with jac tml! u have no idea how much it means to me... where did all my frens go to??? and summore todays topic was abt frens haha... i dunno man... i feel like im losng my mg frens... like when they come back and stuff they din even bother to tell us and ivana couldnt come back oso... and i miss them so much!! and my vj frens... i dunno lah... it seems the same but its different... at least i got church i guess... i really need to tok to chuili soon... REAL soon... and at least i got jac. sometimes u think u can count on pple and u cant. i really want a fren tt i can turn to always hu is always dere... i know i have Jesus but i mean a human fren... i wish i were in mg again... or first three mnths... tml is cell grp with sec 1s... they all seem really nice and i hope we can all become close... they remind me so much of us when we were sec 1... i really pray tt they may grow... today i was doing my dtc and like it was saying tt prayer is not just in your mind but its in the spirit... i really hope tt i would be able to do tt... and like i read something hudson taylor said abt how if u pray in the spirit pple can come to Christ just cos of tt... so im going to pray everyday for my frens hu dun have Him yet... soemtimes i really cant do anything else i dunno man... maybe i haven been praying with enough faith? its like so hard to pray sometimes esp when got so much stuff to distract... i wish tt God would speak to me the way He did to samuel... but i guess i dun listen enough? dunno lah feel really bothered now. i wanna cry but there is no shoulder to cry on.